I am receiving my endowment in 8 days! That is awesome! Which means Racheal is getting married in 9! Woo!
But here is the awesome exciting news! Melanie is pregnant! How weird, and yet wonderful! It's weird because that could be me having a baby. She is my twin! AH. So, she is having a baby. Emma, Alicia's daughter, will have a cousin to play with. I wonder if it will be a girl or a boy. I wonder if Mel is ready.. I don't think I am. But whether she thinks she is or not, Heavenly Father thinks she and Christopher can handle a baby right away. She will never have alone time with Christopher ever again! haha. But in a very good way. She'll have that constant worry, which is good. I think it makes a person totally less selfish.
Marcus guessed right away when I told him. Darn it. I wanted to break the news; in his words, "he stole my thunder." He was going to be the only one I could tell, too. :/ Bummer! But at least we can both share the joy of becoming new aunt and uncle to this baby which will inherently be cute!
I am having my stake interview with the president today in order to get my temple recommend officially official. It will be nice, and then by this time next week I will be entirely prepared to enter into the house of the Lord in order to become closer to him; one with His will. If my will is completely aligned with His, there's no limit to the things I will be able to accomplish, and to think that, soon after I will be married and Marcus and I together will be able to have and create an eternal family through our righteousness. That is going to be the most exciting part of this adventure.
I've done the "single" thing and now it's time to do the "married" thing--forever! I am excited.
I love my life.
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
What does one do when life hands you lemons?
Hello,
Last month was probably one of the hardest and most difficult months of my life emotionally speaking. I think it was the very first time I was actually...dare I say it...depressed. I hate to admit that I was in fact depressed because that means I was being the most selfish person in the world...I really hate to admit that.
I don't know how to explain what happened, but I think I just felt like I was attacked by all the little things that life throws at you all at once. It didn't help matters that Marcus was all the way in Idaho, away from me. He has become the best part of me, and I think losing him would totally stink. It would be devastating. But he claims he is invincible and that he is here to stay until he goes at the young age of sixty. Yeah right. He will get very old along next to me. We will be happy and we have lots of children. So far we like the number 12.
Anyways, I survived my period of depression and no, I did not have to use drugs. I used faith. I think that, and prayers for me. I was showing a lack of faith while I was depressed, but to get out of that depression it took a lot of faith. I had to trust that everything was fine in the Lord's hands, and that He would take care of everything. That's why he's here; to help and to love.
Now that I am not depressed anymore, I am feeling invigorated and ready to take on the world. My first plan is to learn how to make fondant and good cake because I really want to make my own wedding cake. Leah, my good friend and neighbor, came over for pretty much the whole day, and we decided that it would be really exciting and joyous if we learned how to make cake together! Plus, I think it will be super fun. I've been watching lots of cake shows on television; cake boss, amazing wedding cakes, ace of cakes. I would like to add a bit of me to the cake. It will be a fun experience.
Marcus is doing really well in school. He has straight A's. He would get mad at himself if he didn't get those grades. He works day and night to get them. He is amazing. I hope a lot of the devotion goes to our marriage as well. I know he has this balancing act he needs to perfect, but I just hope it doesn't take him long to perfect it. There's family time (which at the moment is "me" time) and then there's work time (which at the moment is school). I want him to succeed, I really do, because his success is my success. I want him to find success with me, too, though. We'll see what happens, and I really shouldn't be worrying about that now. We're not even married yet.
55 days!
He is coming to visit me in 25 days for a whole week! What he does while here for that whole week will really amaze me. I am sure I will have work almost every day, except for the Thanksgiving part, but the other parts we will spend lots and lots of time together, but we won't passionately kiss. We swore that off last month. I don't know how we'll handle that.. ugh. We WILL manage though. We want to feel pure and joyous and especially worthy when we kneel across the altar from one another in the beautiful Los Angeles Temple. And for that reason, the Lord will give us strength to resist and avoid temptation. (We'll probably never be alone. haha.)
Racheal, one of my good friends, is getting married on November 6th! It is really exciting! We have been planning our futures together for so long and now they are finally happening! Her fiance, Jacob, is a fabulous man, and he deserves to marry a wonderful woman like Racheal. They will work well together, I think.
Melanie, my twin, is having a lonely time in Texas with her husband Christopher. But she is making it. She just doesn't have many friends there, yet, but I know that's coming. She gets to come to my sealing which is one thing I was worried about for a little bit. Man. I am really lucky. Racheal, and Melanie get to come to my sealing. As for my older sister, Alicia, I will see her in the temple some day. I know I will. She just needs a little more strength and faith that she can handle following the right. She can do it.
I got mad at my Dad today because he did something that was offensive to me. He was just so uninviting..something I would hate to have in my future home with Marcus. I talked to him about it and he says that if an inviting warm feeling is so important to me for our future home together that that's the way it would be. And that's the way it will be--goodness gracious!
It is icey cold in the house at the moment. Pop forgot to pay the gas bill, so we have no heat and no hot water until tomorrow. Oh how much I love modern conveniences! I would totally suck as a pioneer.
Marcus is having more and more memorable dreams! A couple nights ago he had a dream that we were married and he was called as the Albanian mission president! That is awesome! If that does happen, it won't happen for a few years now because usually those men are self-sufficient, which we totally aren't right now. I mean, we're still filed as dependents on our parents' tax forms! But I do know that one day we will have a home and a wonderful loving family of our own. I am completely excited about that time.
For now, being engaged is a trial, but the first years of marriage will rock and we will see each other's true colors even more vividly.
It will be an adventure.
So what do we do when life gives us those lemons? We get sugar and make lemonade!
Last month was probably one of the hardest and most difficult months of my life emotionally speaking. I think it was the very first time I was actually...dare I say it...depressed. I hate to admit that I was in fact depressed because that means I was being the most selfish person in the world...I really hate to admit that.
I don't know how to explain what happened, but I think I just felt like I was attacked by all the little things that life throws at you all at once. It didn't help matters that Marcus was all the way in Idaho, away from me. He has become the best part of me, and I think losing him would totally stink. It would be devastating. But he claims he is invincible and that he is here to stay until he goes at the young age of sixty. Yeah right. He will get very old along next to me. We will be happy and we have lots of children. So far we like the number 12.
Anyways, I survived my period of depression and no, I did not have to use drugs. I used faith. I think that, and prayers for me. I was showing a lack of faith while I was depressed, but to get out of that depression it took a lot of faith. I had to trust that everything was fine in the Lord's hands, and that He would take care of everything. That's why he's here; to help and to love.
Now that I am not depressed anymore, I am feeling invigorated and ready to take on the world. My first plan is to learn how to make fondant and good cake because I really want to make my own wedding cake. Leah, my good friend and neighbor, came over for pretty much the whole day, and we decided that it would be really exciting and joyous if we learned how to make cake together! Plus, I think it will be super fun. I've been watching lots of cake shows on television; cake boss, amazing wedding cakes, ace of cakes. I would like to add a bit of me to the cake. It will be a fun experience.
Marcus is doing really well in school. He has straight A's. He would get mad at himself if he didn't get those grades. He works day and night to get them. He is amazing. I hope a lot of the devotion goes to our marriage as well. I know he has this balancing act he needs to perfect, but I just hope it doesn't take him long to perfect it. There's family time (which at the moment is "me" time) and then there's work time (which at the moment is school). I want him to succeed, I really do, because his success is my success. I want him to find success with me, too, though. We'll see what happens, and I really shouldn't be worrying about that now. We're not even married yet.
55 days!
He is coming to visit me in 25 days for a whole week! What he does while here for that whole week will really amaze me. I am sure I will have work almost every day, except for the Thanksgiving part, but the other parts we will spend lots and lots of time together, but we won't passionately kiss. We swore that off last month. I don't know how we'll handle that.. ugh. We WILL manage though. We want to feel pure and joyous and especially worthy when we kneel across the altar from one another in the beautiful Los Angeles Temple. And for that reason, the Lord will give us strength to resist and avoid temptation. (We'll probably never be alone. haha.)
Racheal, one of my good friends, is getting married on November 6th! It is really exciting! We have been planning our futures together for so long and now they are finally happening! Her fiance, Jacob, is a fabulous man, and he deserves to marry a wonderful woman like Racheal. They will work well together, I think.
Melanie, my twin, is having a lonely time in Texas with her husband Christopher. But she is making it. She just doesn't have many friends there, yet, but I know that's coming. She gets to come to my sealing which is one thing I was worried about for a little bit. Man. I am really lucky. Racheal, and Melanie get to come to my sealing. As for my older sister, Alicia, I will see her in the temple some day. I know I will. She just needs a little more strength and faith that she can handle following the right. She can do it.
I got mad at my Dad today because he did something that was offensive to me. He was just so uninviting..something I would hate to have in my future home with Marcus. I talked to him about it and he says that if an inviting warm feeling is so important to me for our future home together that that's the way it would be. And that's the way it will be--goodness gracious!
It is icey cold in the house at the moment. Pop forgot to pay the gas bill, so we have no heat and no hot water until tomorrow. Oh how much I love modern conveniences! I would totally suck as a pioneer.
Marcus is having more and more memorable dreams! A couple nights ago he had a dream that we were married and he was called as the Albanian mission president! That is awesome! If that does happen, it won't happen for a few years now because usually those men are self-sufficient, which we totally aren't right now. I mean, we're still filed as dependents on our parents' tax forms! But I do know that one day we will have a home and a wonderful loving family of our own. I am completely excited about that time.
For now, being engaged is a trial, but the first years of marriage will rock and we will see each other's true colors even more vividly.
It will be an adventure.
So what do we do when life gives us those lemons? We get sugar and make lemonade!
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